I feel a vulnerable pain
As though the world is staring
Into my cloud of rain
With a lens that is now blurry
.
Through this smudged lens
You can’t see the truth
It’s a view I can’t defend
Because no one can see the truth
.
People want to see
What they want to see
It doesn’t matter what I plea
The ear won’t listen
.
I scream and I yell
This is all I know how
To do to not sell
My soul to the monster
.
The lens, it sees, it magnifies
The dark secrets that I want untold
But I can’t see bright skies
I can’t choose and it feels so dark
.
The waves push me down
And hold me in the depths of the growing sea
Until I start to drown
I feel it’s strength and want it to stop
.
As with every other time
The madness fleets
And I start to be fine
At least for now
.
The sadness fades on the outside
And though I feel the pain inside
I try not to hide
From the places that rely on me
.
I move forward
Hoping the dream ends
If only I could have that reward
But my heart knows.
Roses are Red 