borderline personality disorder

My mean mouth

I don’t know why I’m so mean. Today’s blog is probably going to have a different tone because I feel in a different mood. I feel down. I feel flustered. I feel annoyed. Today is just a bad day. I have a migraine and I don’t give a damn about one thing. Was I raisedContinue reading “My mean mouth”

Things are calm… or are they?

Writing has been on my mind. I started this blog to share all of my ups and downs and struggles. There used to be many, but right now my psychiatrist has me on a good cocktail of medications. I am super happy about that! It is a relief. It does come with many thoughts forContinue reading “Things are calm… or are they?”

Timeline – Part 2

I left you off with me finding my new psychiatrist. The ladies there are amazing to me. I know if all of these things hadn’t led me to them, I would never have gotten the actual help I need. At my first appointment, they did a swab DNA test to know what medications do andContinue reading “Timeline – Part 2”

Timeline – Part 1

I’ve told you parts of my story from the beginning of my relationship with Daniel. And now I will tell the most recent few years. I’m going to begin where I can remember seeing the struggles start to form. Struggles that maybe I noticed but I thought were acceptable. As time went on and talkingContinue reading “Timeline – Part 1”

The Curvy Road

This past week has been so difficult for me. I wanted to write some positive message for today but I’m not sure that’s going to happen. Let me see if I can pull some joyful moments out. It will do me some good. When I have a bad day or week, I often am leftContinue reading “The Curvy Road”

The Lens – Darla Rose

I feel a vulnerable pain As though the world is staring Into my cloud of rain With a lens that is now blurry . Through this smudged lens You can’t see the truth It’s a view I can’t defend Because no one can see the truth . People want to see What they want toContinue reading “The Lens – Darla Rose”

My forever family

To get me and understand the impact of all of these struggles, I felt I should tell the story of my family, how we came to be, and how we have managed. I met Daniel in 2013, right after we had both gotten divorced. We met online through a church dating website and it wasContinue reading “My forever family”

The evil twin

Yesterday, I told you about my bipolar disorder diagnosis. Before I was even diagnosed with that (a year before), I was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder. The truth is, 20% (if not more) of people diagnosed with bipolar disorder type 2 are also diagnosed with borderline personality disorder. That’s a lot. Most of the peopleContinue reading “The evil twin”